delay Delay dELAY delaayyyy

What makes some people tick quick? I tick slow. I think I'm on time, but I must be slow. There's things in life that should be taken care of, things that deserve my close attention, my determination and will. I will not respond. I need a slap in the face, but don't want one and won't get one. I need a shot in the arm, but don't deserve one. I do a lot. I leave a lot. I fill my days with needs and wants, but ignore some needs. There really is a time when you say, I MUST TAKE CARE OF THIS. So what happens? In my case I seem able to forget I have something to take care of, even though it grates on me and pulls me down and I have to walk around with a facade of happy because I don't like to be un. So I respond to calls, I go out, I have a good time for one more day and put off what needs to be finished. I read, I write, I listen to music, I play music, I watch tv shows online, I finish a whole series, DeathNote, which I find intriguing and fantastic, I decide to cook, anything to not do what needs to be done.
I am and always have been a horrible procrastinator. I need due dates. Otherwise I find ways to delay. In school I don't think I ever finished assignments, term papers, projects, nothing ever finished until late night (early morning really) the day of due. I have a date. but will I find a way to delay? I hope not. I am tired. I am worn down past the knuckle. I feel crushed but try and pop up and look normal with no visible crinkle. I am a waste, but I am full of life. I must stop the delay.
Must.
I think I'm going to try and write a song now.

i love pandora

sometimes i forget how much.

when i feel lazy and want to hear
much good music to my ear
i go to pandora
and there i explora

let's stop there. my impromptu poem is just pathetic.
thought of rhyming euphoria with pandora,
implora, look fora, stupid... this is why i stay away
from poems. i like dr. seuss, but i'll never be as
good as ol' theodore, so i'm not going to be happy
with the poems.

anyway... Pandora is a wonderful wonderful site
that I nearly forgot. Not forgot so much as neglected.
I think I'll be on it for a while now. I likes.